"Because..."
"Because of what?!" sem se zadrla, da je ostal brez besed
"You're not my father and you can't just tell me what I can do, it's my life and I like it, but if you don't accept this just leave me alone" sem nadaljevala. Nič ni rekel, samo strmel je.
"And by the way, Ryan is your friend, he should told you this... Why do I even telling you this...tell me, why do you want to know?!"
"Because I care ok?!" se je zadrl, a tokrat sem brez besed ostala jaz.
"I care about you" je še nadaljeval.
"Ryan told me that you two are dating now, is that a truth?" je še dodal
"Yes, we're dating" žalostno je pogledal.
"I'm sorry I just came and yell at you" se je opravičil.
"You came just because of this?"
"Yes... actually no. I came because I want to know why are you so angry and mean to me" pogledala sem vstran in hitro razmišljala kaj bi lahko rekla.
"I can't right now"
"no! You always want to get out of this sittuation, but now there is no more excuse, you'll tell me. I won't leave until you tell me the reason"
"I...I...I just changed"
"You are such a bad liar. You're the same person like you were for 3 years ago. Please tell me why. You can trust me" pogledala sem ga in on me je prijel za roko ter me gledal.
"ok. It's all about Betsy and you. You don't even know how you hurted me when you started to dating with her. And then I saw you two kissing on the pool and I was really jelaus. Now you know and you can leave now" oči so se mu kar zableščale. Potisnila sem ga že proti vratom, ampak se je obrnil.
"Wait haha, you were jelaus? But why didn't you told me this earlier?"
"Because I was afraid and then you got mad because I didn't tell you who I really was" malo sem zardela in pogledala v tla. Justin je stopil do mene in s svojo roko dvignil mojo glavo ter me pogledal.
"look, I was always loving you, but I was afraid to tell you this. When Ryan told me that you two are together I started dying inside me, because I'm so fucking jelaus that you can't inagine this feeling. But now it's too late, because I already lost you"
"I'm still your friend"
"Yeah friend...but I wanna to be more than just a friend" začel se mi je približevati, a sem se umaknila, saj sem vedela, da ne smem.
"i can't" sem izdahnila.
"Yes I know" je rekel razumljivo
"But I really want to touch your lips with mines. I just want to be with you"
"Yeah but now it's too late, so you must accept our relationship with Ryan"
"I know that, but hard. We will be friends but I won't watch you two kissing in front of me" odprl je vrata in me še pogledal, se poslovil in odšel.
Vesela sem, da sva razjasnila, ampak mi je bilo tako žal, saj sem šele zdaj spoznala, da si me želi. Tudi jaz sem hotela biti z njim, ampak zdaj me je oviral le Ryan, ki ga nisem hotela prizadeti, zato sem mu dala priložnost.
Poklicala sem ga in mu povedala, da ga imam rada...
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